Saturday, October 9, 2010

Piked and BYOC

So I piked tonight. Couldn't get the nerve to leave the house and go to the bar on my own to meet my friends. When I found out my sister wasn't going because she's ill the thought of having to get through the front doors and look for my mates seemed too angst ridden for me to bear. I did my hair, bought new clothes and everything! Oh well. Next time.

Seeing that I'm home tonight and mum is watching old movies on TCM I may as well do another post in between catching up on other people's blogs. I just read Bonnie's BYOC over at Banded and Proud of it! so thought I'd give it a go for the first time.

1. If you wrote a biography on your life, what would the title be?

Sex, Drugs and Rock n Roll... Then Baby
How parenthood turned my life around

2. Would you take $1 million dollars to leave your present life – including friends and family – to start over somewhere else? You’re leaving your physical location to never go back but you can contact them via phone and net and such. (You take your immediate family with you... spouse, kids, etc.)

I've left my family and friends so many times over the years. In fact I usually move every 3 years or so. Going by this pattern I'd be due to leave any time soon as its been 3 years and 4 months since I've been back from the UK where I lived for 3 years and 7 months. Before that I was in Sydney (where all my family and most my friends are) for 4 years and 2 months. Before that was Melbourne for 2 years and 9 months. Prior to that I was in Sydney again for 2.5 years. Then I was in Melbourne for 3 years and 6 months. See what I mean? I've been moving around since I was 16.

So it wouldn't be a big deal for me to leave Sydney again as long as I had my son with me. It'd be good to be able to come home for a visit though as I've always done that when I've lived out of Sydney. At least once a year. I don't think even 1 million bucks would be enough to keep me away forever!

3. Are you a person everyone trusts or do you have trouble trusting everyone or both?

I trust everyone! To my detriment too. I think most people trust me... I hope so anyway.

4. Looking back, if I asked you what one event changed the course of your life – and you had to answer immediately the first thing that popped into your head… what would it be?

Finding out I was pregnant! I was at rock bottom at the time. Seriously living on the edge of society, wasted all the time, chronically depressed, estranged from my family and friends and borderline suicidal when my period was late and I did a test. When I saw those 2 little pink lines on the test it was the first ray of hope I'd had in what felt like an eternity. The life growing inside me gave me the courage to get my own life back. It was a miracle of sorts. The most important turning point in my life so far.

My little saviour

5. Repeat question: Summarize your week in life and in blogland.

I'm a bit stressed in the real world. I have loads of TAFE work to complete and Noo is driving me crazy because he's taking so long to settle in to bed every night. I'm buggered. I need a break.

Blogland is great. It keeps me going and inspired and more grounded in this journey, rather than being an anxious mess feeling like I'm alone. So thanks everyone.



Trudi said...

Thanks god for Neddy.

I always thank my lucky stars that I have my children.

They are all so different and one of them just would never be the same again if I wasn't here,the others have the strength to move through anything - she doesn't - she has been my reason for staying.

Liz said...

what an honest post!! and a beautiful picture of you and ned!!!I am really loving reading your posts. I'm sorry you couldn't go out tonight...I know the feeling all to well. But you are still sounding positive so i'm sure that a night out is in the future for you!!

hopefully ned settles early tonight and you can get some rest!

Something About Kellie said...

Don't worry there will be other opportunities to go out when you are ready!

It's funny how these little beings capture us whole-heartedly. I never knew what it was to love someone with your full self until I had children. The worst day with them still beats the best day without them (although mummy-time is fantastic).

:) I love your honesty in your posts. It does help to know that we are not alone.

Michelle said...

That is such an adorable picture of you and Neddy. He is just to cute for words!

Drazil said...

So sorry I wasn't following. Thanks for doing BYOC! Love #4.

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